They think killing is the solution. Kill the girl to get sex. Kill the enemy to not see them. Kill a country for peace. Kill animals for food. Killing is WRONG no matter what.
I am starting to be happy with my appearance. But I can’t help but wish to be someone else/ have a feature of theirs. There are so many beautiful girls I wish to be. I sometimes wonder if I change my hair then I’ll be happy, but I do that then want something else. Why can’t I be completely happy with myself?
I’m still so depressed about the wreck. She seemed to be supportive at first then went crazy and blamed me and I told her I hated my life and I wanted to die and she hit me and even bit me like a freak. She threw pills at the plate I bought and it fell (was on TV cuz it had words) and then I realized part of my emotional problems is linked to her. She’s emotionally unstable (as well) and she’s a huge trigger for me. Not that she’s all of them because my anger problems lead to a lot of shit… Obviously.
I never wakeup this early, I stayed up late too. Why would my body wake up now and not even feel tired?
Maybe it’s because I haven’t been working out. I feel quite gross. When school gets out I want to work out every day. But again, it’s hard for me to find the time. I know I just sit around a lot too, but I feel like I really need that in my day to be sane.